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One year ago today I lost my grandmother. I adored her. She was the one woman I literally thought Jesus’ love shined through her. I pray to God everyday to make me more like her. She was an incredible wife, mother and woman who loved the Lord with all of her heart. She always couldn’t wait to touch Jesus’ Tassel’s someday in Heaven. I have NO doubt she has already accomplished that.

This day brings a little sadness and some painful memories, but last year today something great also happened. We lost her here on earth and my selfish self wishes I could have her back, but I also can’t help but smile when I think of her in Heaven. Like a little girl again, she is probably sitting on her Father’s lap happier than I could ever imagine.

And this makes me smile. Because she’s smiling.

Today, I couldn’t help but think of the book of John 14. The first four verses read: “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for, I will come back and take you to be with me so that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.” Knowing my Nanny, she is assisting Him in preparing a place for her beloved husband.

Although my grandfather is alive and well, he has spent the last year without his beautiful bride of sixty-five years. He, without a doubt, misses her and when it’s time for God to call him home, he’ll be as happy as Nanny was. Even though the thought of losing him makes me sad, I’ll know he’ll be reunited with his girl.

And this makes me smile. Because he’ll be smiling.

For me, one of the biggest reasons I have always believed in God is because of the love they shared. His love shined through them like a blinding light and they represented Him in a way I hope to emulate someday.

I think God knew exactly what He was doing with them. So I’m going to trust that He knows exactly what He’s doing with me.. Someday when it comes time for God to call me home, I know my room will be ready, and my beloved husband, Adam, will be right there with me.. Just like Nanny and Pop. Just like Mom and Dad. Just like all who God calls to come home.

And this makes me smile. Because God will be smiling.